The rain hasn’t stopped for a very long time now…I can’t seem to remember when it started. Come to think of it, i’ve been forgetting a lot of things lately. The worse was yesterday morning…

I received a text message from darren about a new meeting time and stuff and i composed the reply…I think I sent the reply. But I can’t remember. In any case, less than a minute after I think I sent it, i wasn’t sure if I sent it. So i re-composed the message and sent it again…How does one forget something in seconds? I must be growing old…

Was talking to Jenn online yesterday and telling her my spate of detached feelings. I’ve been feeling really detached lately. Hah. What she said sounded weird but it seemed rather apt, come to think of it.

"you’re really the kinda guy who’s looking for that soulmate to complete him i think"

soulmate. It sounds like a word out of a fairytale. Like ‘match made in heaven’. Like ‘an angel with wings’. Like a episode where two people walk in the rain together laughing and making fun of each other until they’re all spent and they sit under a bridge. Like something that’s imagined.

I think i’m growing up. The brutal realities of life are finally seeping into my bloodstream. And just like the bitter black coffee that i’m sipping at right now, it tastes somewhat dark but it keeps you alive. Its like this weird concoction of bitter-dream mix.

Oh well.

C’est la vie.